I spent all night at P’ng and Judy’s place. We’re trying to put together a slideshow for Tina’s Funeral this Saturday. Everyone’s been mailing Judy all these photos and I think it’s been pretty hard on Judy – Especially since P’ng has been away at a conference for while.
I’m not looking forward to Saturday. There are going to be too many sad people there. While I try to let people grieve in there own ways, sometimes I just think it’s stupid to cry so much. For me, it’s the same thing as being diagnosed with cancer. What’s to get sad over? The only option you’ve got is to deal with it. Same with death. Sure it’s not pretty. Sure you don’t want it to happen to folks before their time. But it isn’t something you can control.
Anyway, I can’t help thinking also, that this is just the beginning of it all. The longer I live, the more funerals I’m going to go to. It’s just the way it is.
sorry if I’m a cold fish. Maybe it will be different for me when it’s someone super close to me. If it were my wife, for example, I can see myself being devastated to the point of being non-functional, but maybe that’s a special case. or maybe it isn’t