I started a real full-time hospital nursing job today. (No scrubs, not yet – all HR stuff today). I went half time at my regular job. I looked carefully for this job. I wanted a short commute, days only, and as diverse a patient population and nursing staff as I could manage. Even though logically I know everything will be fine & I will be fine, every time I settle on the fact that in about 6 weeks I’ll have 5 patients who I’ll have to take care of on my own, I feel like I’m going to throw up.