Well… I’ve been thinking a lot lately (when have I not?)…
I talked to Choon about life and stuff on Saturday. I mentioned to him that I’m sorta feel a bit purposeless in life at the moment. Sure I enjoy myself, biking and whatnot, but you know really, I’ve got no responsiblities. I’ve got no goal in life – I don’t think I’ve really had a goal since college. He suggested that I come up with something to focus myself. His goal, of course, was to become a CxO (CEO, CFO, CTO), which made him realize that his regular job wasn’t going to get him there, and so he quit and started is own company. It’s definitely something that I admire.
I guess this come to the love part. I think part of the reason that I don’t want to figure out my life right now, is that I’d want to figure out my life with someone. You know, have some emotional support or feel like we’re building a life together. As people grow older, it seems more and more, than instead of forming something together, it’s more about how someone fits into your life. I dunno. Seem rather… depressing.
Anyways, perhaps I’m forced to change my worldview at this point. Maybe I’m forced to go out on my own to figure things out. Can I say that I don’t like it one bit?