I have not been my usual chipper self. If there is anything that I could change about myself, it would be that I’d like to get rid of my depressive tendencies. I tend to focus on something that I perceive to be wrong with my life and then blow it all out of proportion so that I becomes the center of my attention for weeks. Of course, my focus these days is usually on Rett Syndrome and what a crappy thing it is, but I remember that even before I had kids, I would get the same feeling about something totally different – like maybe that I didn’t have a boyfriend or my job sucked or that everyone was having fun except for me… Then I wallow in self-pity and I feel sorry for myself. This takes up a lot of my time. Time when I could be off going on a hike and feeling the sun on my face. It doesn’t make much sense, but it’s a big part of me.