Update.

I had a fantastic two shifts on Tuesday and Wed.  Shifts where I felt competent in navigating various snafus when they came up.  Where all the medications were verified and sent up from pharmacy on time and all my IV accesses were there when I needed them. Where I had my favorite charge nurse and my favorite tech both days and I felt supported from above and below.  Where I felt like I was actually taking care of my patients and in many ways, they were taking care of me too. I like being friends with people for 12 hours at a time.  Lots of things happened – I wish I could write about them, but I can’t.  Lots of stories, I like being there to listen to them.  I had that feeling of being good at my job at the right time.  I came home all excited instead of exhausted.  Good days.