I feel good these days. I think I didn’t quite realize how overstretched I was during the pandemic or even the two years before that (probably when I started working the two jobs). Something I like about school is that there are yearly “breaks” in the schedule – you can see a time when you have to work hard, but you know how long you have to sustain that effort and then you get a break when everyone else gets a break too. When you are a grown up, there are no breaks when everyone takes a break too. The all togetherness of the break is important because then no one falls behind, no one needs catching up, and you get to hang out with each other because everyone is on “vacation”.
It has taken a long time to unwind myself from the last five years. I dream nightly now when I sleep which I feel is an indication of relaxing into myself.