Did I write about my new year’s resolution? They are very different from the usual ones. I like setting them and then I usually never refer back to them again. 1) If I’ve decided to do something, don’t insert the “gah, I don’t feel like doing this” as I’m doing it. Like sometimes (examples): my job, watering the plants I love, changing sheets, going outside, etc. I’ve already decided I’m going to do it, why make it more unpleasant for myself? 2) Enjoy the things I’m supposed to enjoy as I’m doing them! Sometimes I can get grumpy doing fun things. 3) Beauty <- I have no idea what that means, but I want it all. All the beauty.
I’m learning to crochet with megan – we are working on the same kit! I’m going dutifully in order of the kits (once-a-month, though I’m on kit 2 and just received kit 6). Megan is hopping around all the kits and doing the ones she wants to do. This was totally predictable as our personalities are different in this way as well. I’ve also lost one of the squares I’ve done and an entire ball of dark purple yarn.
Oh, also I’m trying to not watch too much youtube. I like, inexplicably, watching shopping haul videos, it’s very soothing. So I’m replacing it with actually watching movies. Turns out I can watch a lot of movies if I’m not watching youtube videos. I’m doing a Letterboxd movie challenge which gives a theme for each week and you are supposed to find a movie that fits that theme to watch. I’m enjoying that challenge, I also discovered that the library has its own video streaming app with lots of great films FOR FREE. I’m trying to lengthen my attention span, I’m upset that I can focus only on short video or short essays, I’m going towards movies and books and trying to not reach for my phone and/or the internet while I’m reading or watching. Though it’s 10,000x more stressful than watching a youtube shopping video – I mean a good movie has tension in it and the feeling like – OMG, are these people going to die?! – which is the exact opposite of a shopping haul.
