I suppose Doris isn’t the only one feeling a bit confused these days..
I’m in my own dilemna of sorts. Basically, I potentially have found a pretty cool place in the city. A friend of a friend is looking for a roommate, and I gotta say that the location is great. It’s in Lower Pacific Heights, close to Filmore, Japantown, Van Ness. If i got a commute bike. it’s not far away from the Caltrain station.
I have less than a week to decide if I want it or not.
Lately, I’ve had a feeling of wanting some change in my life. Whether that’s scenery or job or whatever, but I feel like I’m just sitting in yuppieville, spending my money, for no apparent reason or purpose these days. In some ways, it boils down to waht I want to focus on – the girl or the job.
While I do think finding someone is more important on the larger scale of things, lately, there’s nothing happening in that arena, and I feel like my life is in a holding pattern based on this. If i move to the city, then yeah, I’d probably be hanging out with a different crowd, and possibly meet more people. But the fear is that it’s just the same life in a different (and more expensive) locale.
I think at some point, I have to admit to myself that maybe the girl thing might not happen, and focus more energy on finding something that I want to do. I’m dubious that this would happen in SF. Who’s to say it would be more focused in MD? At least I would have a clean break with my job, and there would be fewer distractions.
As Frank would say, “What to do in life?”