I guess I’ve been single for a long time, and I’m under the impression that I do want to be with someone. But I think it’s funny to note my pattern – basically I flirt with everyone, and don’t pursue it past that. (I do have a very loose definition of what flirting is.) For the most part, it’s fun, and mostly harmless. We talk, we laugh, connect and generally have a good time. But a couple things I think emerge from my pattern:
– I don’t want to be hurt
– I don’t want to hurt someone else
– Being responsible for someone else’s feelings/well being weighs heavily on me
I think it comes from some sort of insecurity about the future, or the uncertainty surrounding my life. But perhaps on the flipside, being committed to someone, some place, something, would ground me… but do I want to drag someone into that process?